Come · what · may

Sooooo....
I went to this party with my Estonian Neighbor Maria and this other guy,
the guy was nice, untill he got drunk *_*
There I met this other guy, with whom I worked in london,
who gave me hes phone number.
The first guy got so drunk I walked him to hes home.
Thank god he lives real close.
on the way back home I met this otehr guy who saw me at the party
who dumped hes friends and walked me home,
theeeeen he left me hes card so Ill call him if I wanna go to
Anna Kareninna Balett tomorrow...

Offcourse the card goes to the trash as soon as I finish
this post, and no more drunk guys (although somwhere in the middle of the way home
he decided to quit hehe)

What the fuck is wrong with this world? *_*

I had qite a few changes in my life lately-
moved an apartment-
Im on the Hahsmal street now-
YOU CAN SEE FRAU BLAUES butique out of my window!!!

Im working on a few new musical projects
ofcouse ill when there will be any gigs coming up
but that will take while.

And on the next weekend im gonna see a real LAMA
for the first time in my life :)

Wish me good luck!

Yes-You all ehared right-
I have decided to leave Fatum Aeternum.
After almoust two years of cleboration
sweat, tears, histeria and fun
I have simply ran out.

Fatum Aeternum WILL continue without me-
they already have two new showes schedualed
and are curently looking for a female singer-
So if your intrested-or know anyone who is-
be my guest!!!!

Our Last show at the barby was AMAZING!
we have managed to reach new hights....

OK! Before I satrt crying-
there you go-
I said in....
Fatum turned out not so Aeternum for me :)

I work as a shipping assistant
at a firm that manufactures flag.
ANd what a joy it was to find out
today while doing the tracking numbers
for DHL, that I shipped a box to a whole
new company I have invented myself
"SHOW YOUR COLORS FAG co."

I wonder how will they react?
I mean.. I only eccidently left out one litle L hehehehe....
But how it changes the meanning!
One littel letter can change your day fro the better guys!
Start mistyping - and smile hahaha!

Its 12 at night,
frieday...
AN Im sitting at the office
doing basicly NOTHING!!!

Screw the fact I wanted
to go out fr a derink or something-
I think Im gonna fall asleep on the keyboard.

WHY GOD WHY did you make america-
and even worse-israely companies that work with it? +_+

Dose any-one have a pillow?

Im sitting over a project,
and I feel as if my bones are squicking!

It always gets like that when
I cant make anything work.

FURIATING!
Thats what it is.

I cant make the photoshop CS
do what I want it to do-
wich is driving me insane,
im back to the start point
AGAIN after a few days of work.

Just feel like sitting down
and making all the patterns
by hand, instaed of the simple
mirror duplcation command in photoshop

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!

Ill get back to work in a few minutes-
hopefully ill get it working somehow!

as you give to much to the soul.

BAlance is aperantly important :)

SHiting brais-wich is a basic every day
habbit by now is definatly useless.

Creativity takes courage-
wich is at times prity hard to find.
ANd the shaking of this little boat
on every wave is getting tiering.

Need to grow up-but where do you find the pills
that make you do that?

GOD! What a lazy soul...

THis girl thinks she can feed on thin air..

So what is left to do when the understanding
that something wich seemed so full,
is definatly empty ....

When words are forgetable,
just like promisses...

HOpe as fuel just gets you one step
closer to the cross,
and simple logic sayes nothing.

Although, wait...
I think the logic starts to talk...
it sayes-GO MAKE BREAKFAST YOU FOOL!

PIctures on your skin-
make me shiver with fire!

JUst realizing how scared I was to accept things as they are-
afreid il stick around for too long-get used to all the good with the bad.

RIght now Im sitting here and its just GOOOOOOOOOOOD!

WHatever it is that going on-its ok :)

IT makes me smile-
life is ok,u know?

ITs just FUCKING FINE!

HAHA!

Wish you all a good night-
and a GREAT WEEKEND!

Ola

http://www.myspace.com/hellafatum




NOthign intresting up yet but
hopefully wiht the time :)

Plannign on some musical projects
apart from the band-so hopefully
I'll hang something out there soon enough :)

Shabata Shalom

I started working in a clothes store-
you probably even know it-the THIRS EYE on shenkin street-
Indian cl;othes and yada yada yada.

Work bear-foot if you like,
smoke if you got time-
got reggey and bob dylan playing all day long.

6 hours shift-wich is totaly peachy
and a cool staff.

the whole staff is amde out of young/unsuccesfull artist of all kind-
we got and actres, two singers, two musicians and two designers.

Everythings going well-the managments is overjoyed with
the amount of shit I sell every day lol

Now just need to stop beeing late for work every day and Ill be fucking fine WOOHOO!

I wonder in what enviorments other people work...

WHO CARES ABOUT THE SEX?
lol
It is talking about letting all as we know -go...

THat our "personalities" are just like a cross of lines that creates
one dot. But the dot is only in illusion made by allot of lines crossing hehe :)

we are apparently ONE BIG NOTHING!
amazing....

ANd only when we acknowledge that one big nothing that we are
we are complete love.. complete experience..
we are not even the experience itself
we are just an empty vessel - like the hollow flute
"god" is playing....

Now what do you say about that?

ANd I know the way out
but aint got enough guts yet to go through..

ANOYING? HELL YEH!

Obsessive compolsive they say.. Well CHE-THANKS!
NOw you make me feel alot better.

I understand the whole lameness of my position,
I feel like Im starting to behaive like my grandmother-
yes yes.. Now i learn to understand the past generaations lol

Atleast something good.

NAH! I know its all good-but at the moment im just going fucking crazy.
For some reason waiting for some elf to come iwth a magic stick
and transform it all to something better.

Well little girl-time to get the point HES NOT GONNA COME!

your on your own-and thats the best way it can be :)

obsessive compolsiive obsessive compolsive.... BLAH!

thank you and FUCK YOU ALL!

I DONT FUCKING TRUST PEOPLE!

oh I trust on the little things I dont realy care for
but when Im telling something important-
WOOHOOO!

FINE! Enough with this egony
Im not THAT fucking bad hehe

THanks to DEcapitated for the little advice
SO I woke up at 7 am today
and spent 3 hours at the beach
swimming in the cool water
and frying under the hot sun...

ANd then I actualy went to look for a job
even found one - will see how long Im gonna lest there :)

Wish me luck guys!